These are the kinds of questions that seem to be in constant play - we're always seeking to "find ourselves."
I read an article last week by William Barry SJ, in "Presence," the journal of Spiritual Direction International. Dealing with this matter of discovering our true selves, he quoted a homily by Fr. John Jerdiejus, in which he quoted "an old southern gentleman. It sums it up for me - so much so that I've used it several times over the last week in journal and sermon:
You gotta be who you is, and not who you ain't! Because if you ain't who you is, than you is who you ain't. And that ain't good.
I wish I'd said that.
There is a truth involved here - that we never truly know ourselves until we let go of all the facades we erect around ourselves and allow ourselves to be our selves.
Likewise, we can never truly know God until we know - are are ourselves.
"To be, or not to be; that is the question." In all due respect to Will Shakespeare, perhaps the more complete question is to be me - or not . . . that is . . . .
Just a thought . . . .
Rev. JimmyDave